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Their lives were built on lies
their bliss just a facade
for twenty years plus five
they'd vowed before their God
to live and love and laugh
and build forevermore
they hired a household staff
had friends and wealth galore
but life behind the scenes
was filled with booze and sex
he said "it's in the genes"
she said "it's just complex"
the children shake their heads
now grown and on their own
from the time they were kids
ashamed of what was sown

To deconstruct a vow
is treachery indeed
if they had known what they know now
might it have changed their wicked deeds?

What IfYou try to mold me into whatever you desire
But what if I don't want to be like you?
What if I want to be my own person?
What if I want to make my own choices
And not be spoon-fed like a newborn?
I want to be my own person,
But you take me like batter and try to turn me into what you want
Not what I want to do in life,
What I want to accomplish
You call me weak
You say I'll never survive in the 'real' world

But what if I want to go my own way?
You call me a baby
Just an infant
Who wouldn't last
But I'm ready now, and it's my life
Not yours
You say you're there to guide me
But you're getting in my way
Of living my life
My way

An Elegy to the ObjectRest your grey swans, your winter is over;
Their songs delight the fruitless heath.
Alas! The country wizened drover
Grants his good wife your dying wreath.

And all things bear my homespun sheath
In which you sleep as you depart,
And all I have I did bequeath
To you: the object of my art.

Yet, still your rotting soul does impart
A whisper through the bolted casements in me,
And I for one, must have a cold, cold heart
To beleive you lived for my elegy.

The Scarlet of ValorWere we brought forth to be monsters,
Instruments made for channeling deceit?
Where rancor’s lies and hatred feed us,
And another’s misery is our peace?

Just whose shoulders do we stand for?
On this clever grueling affair?
Or do we go and purge on blindly,
Like fish swimming in air?

If its strength we wish to have proven,
Then far too long it has been done.
Done with ways much too impeccable,
Pushing humanity into the slum.

But a commodity without fulfillment,
Will take those without a price.
What we protect goes on to crumble,
But we’re all deaf to our own cries.

Thus from a pain was borne much more,
Like a rained on se

this world will offer...this world will offer a tie for my trust
but no government can raise life from the dust

so i got to remember the truth that resides
when ile follow my heart instead of the lies

that everyones spewd whether like it or not
who knows wut is best in a place that will rot?

so just smile and think 'wut a fool is that guy'
hes not going to college he'll be shoed as a fly

and tho i may not be on record or known
we'll all be remembered for wut we have sown

not wut we have reaped or wut we may claim
achievements or 'honors' as fame is a game

and 'trusty' employers will say they know why
and demanding u orders to follow, or 'bye'

but i got to ask

Depression's DuelA girl alone, cold and wallowing in the fragments of her soul.
Two beings, Life and Death are locked in mortal combat.
Death strikes first with a furious vengeance.

Death

In her life there is so much strife
Over such trivial matters that mortals fight over
Money, power, looks and lovers
No one cares to give her a fair chance
In death there is a release
Eternal slumber and peace
The world is cruel, just like the gruel she forces herself to eat in defeat

Life

Yes, in your life there are quarrels
and people choose possessions over you.
But remember your little sister who looks up to you.
Your mother who held you through your child hood.
The

No longer warmMy eyes are warm
My heart is cold
You never know
Your grin grows old

You laugh at me
I’m always wrong
Your great friendship
Didn’t last long

I’m your friend
But you’re not mine
My hug is cold
You’ve crossed the line

I no longer want
To be your friend
Face it now
This has to end

How to Know You're Living Rightif today was your last day,
and tomorrow was too late...

if the devil came and knocked on my door,
said, "You'll be given scant hours more."
I'd pack no bags, just jot a note:
"It's been fun, more than I'd hoped,"
and let it flutter to the floor.

if plans you make for your last day,
things you'd want to try and play;
if special times you wish you would,
you're not living as you should...
it doesn't matter anyway.

when the devil comes and knocks on my head,
"This day is your last," he said;
"Keep the change, let's move on out:
last day's ain't what life's about."
I'll race him to his vessel instead.

could you say goodbye to yesterday?

Something To Believe In...My heart, a field of wildflowers,
Your love can make them bloom.
Fill my head with diamond showers,
And thoughts of golden noons.
Rays of whimsy find your smile,
They dance across your face.
Electric light behind your eyes,
White heat in your embrace.
Smolders linger where you touch,
Refusing to consume.
Tantalizingly preventing
Pleasures known too soon.
Amber soulfire flickers densely
Inside our misted shade.
While heavenly once was our intention,
To desires we abade.
A penny for your thoughts, my dear
Or maybe two, or three,
Surely all the riches I hold
For what you think of me...

Reinhard's CrimeThe blonde man sits serene
In his easy rocking chair
Eyes fixed on a manic, far future.

A collar creaseless and hangman high
Under an adler nose and bright blue eyes
A handsome face o'er a madman's frame.

Swords swing and sing
In a morning full of futures
Each one monstrous and grand.

The screams in Bohemia
Echo around a dead village
That not even maps acknowledge.

ShadeThe bird spreads its wings
Without hesitation
Without reserve it sings

Towards the sun it soars
Casting its own silhouette
So grand and to my eyes it roars

I am only a shadow in the shade
Here I exist and blend so perfectly into the world
Wonders of the man-made

Artificial hearts that save lives
Or do they only prolong suffering
Fear of death like dull knives

So I step into the light
And in the blinding moment
I finally regain my sight

CagedLike a lion behind the bars of a cage
My longing for more fills my heart with rage
This rage build and later I realize
Their is nothing I can do to make it subside
My heart wishes for something more
But my spirits trapped behind a cell door
I don't know who has the key
To open these walls and set me free

My eyes miss the wild
The thrill of the hunt
The wonder of a child
My mind being absent
All the while I sit and I stay
Moments fly by as life slips away

What more can I do to feel that freedom again
What more can I say when I don't understand
Where is it that I am meant to be?
Because I know this caged beast is no longer me

what will come tomorrowA darkness is stirring
Inside of me
I struggle from it
But I cant break free
Horrors are abundantly
I lose all I ever held dear
Fading from this world that grows
As my mind wanders with shadows
Peace is something foreign to me
A life of hardships is what I lead
I never seem to be enough
Who thought love would be so tough

Broken mirrors and picture frames
Somehow it is all I blame
I know that something more is left
Other than a quiet death
A surrender, A return to sender
I've been on a bender
And I cant seem to stop these tears
From ringing every fear I have
Bringing it to light and then
Making them my only friend
Braking what little I love

CaptureSave me from fortune,
Damn me to sin,
Open the black doors
To let evil in.

Bind me in darkness,
Feed on my fears,
Close my blank eyes,
Whisper in my ears.

Hold down my hands,
Assault my skin,
Torment my mind
And let evil in.

Melt my ability to go free,
Ruin my thoughts of all happy,
Whisper acid words in my ears,
Come destroy what I hold dear.

Seduced by your spell,
Come to destroy
This once white canvas,
I am your toy.

Make me crazy,
Drive me insane,
Take away my mind,
No light ever again.

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VoicesReaching for a twinkling star
Never gets you very far
Once you stumble
Then you fall
Down the rabbit hole you go

Ever deeper the abyss
Every thought gone amiss
Mirror mirror
On the wall
Who’s the loneliest of them all?

Falling further, falling faster
Hurtling head on to disaster
There’s no end
No respite
Mind’s eye lacking insulite

There be monsters in your head
Showing you the things you dread
In the darkness
As you fall
Hiding underneath it all

Will they get you in the end?
Will you make reality bend?
Little darling
I don’t know
But I’ll wait for you below

AlibisTell me what’s wrong
In this space, in this life
That we occupy?
Is it the restraints
The excuses and the alibis?

Look at yourself
The reflection in the mirror
Look at what you’ve become
Why isn’t the face getting any clearer
Where is the compassion
It used to be much nearer
You’ve lost it all
No one’s left to be your hearer

Where do we go
To leave this space, this life
That we occupy?
Free ourselves of the restraints
The excuses and the alibis

I try to prevent
All the pain that you cause
Don’t know what to do any more
Rampant emotions set on pause
Where is the logic
Despite all its flaws

Last RitesOne regret, still so fresh
One last chance to say goodbye
As the bullet burrows in your flesh
Make the choice to live or die

Two’s a date, three’s a crowd
Make it quick and worth my while
Standing tall and standing proud
You’re so god damned versatile

Can you dodge inevitability
When there are no brakes?
There goes your infallibility
Come and meet your past mistakes

Watch the dot, it’s getting nearer
A rabbit caught in hunter’s sights
The end is now becoming clearer
Time to read you your last rites

Feelings InterruptedErase me off your computer screen
Unplug and stow away like a used machine
Pretend I don’t exist and cannot survive
Assume I’m inert and arguably not alive

Deprive me of the emotional zeros and ones
Lock away in a compartment with loaded guns
Bury six feet under and promptly drive away
Blame it all on society’s immoral decay

Discharge your responsibility, shrug commitment aside
Ignore things as they come, take it all in stride
Misuse the naivety, put it all in chains
Grab the needles, one by one, stab them in my veins

Block out screams of horror, oblivious to my pain
Drive them deeper, watch blood trickle further d

This IsThis is a story best untold
This is a sorrow most foretold
This is a hand that slipped away
This is a feeling kept at bay

All the could have beens and fragile memories
The story ended before it begun
Never got the chance to admire your qualities
Too quick to pull the trigger on the gun

This is a drama in the making
This is constantly aggravating
This is a hopeless situation
This is a world of frustration

Left you alone in the eye of the storm
Rejected, dejected, forever denied
Walked away to have fun on my own
Paid no attention to the tears you cried

This is a regret I’ll always bear
This is a reflection of despair
This

Rear-View MirrorIt was perfection beyond words untold
At the pearly gates of the heaven’s door
Through the looking glass of your shattered dream
Things are rarely what they seem

When having found ideality you cannot commit
Flattery is rarely a substitute for wit
Your attitude will make a holy man stray
Things don’t always turn out that way

With the realization of a wasted time dawning
The futility of endeavors, ass kissing and fawning
With broken illusions, prowling the streets in fear
Objects in rear-view mirror are closer than they appear

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Inertia

by ~n-g-e, Aug 3, 2007, 1:58:19 AM
Literature / Poetry / Human Nature / Traditional Fixed Forms

Stand still, dwell on past mistakes
One step forward, two steps back, just in case
Redundant synapse, backup systems failed
Motionless, agitated, distraught, delayed

Stuck in a moment that never ends
Perpetual motion doing circles in your head
There is no way in and no way out
Inert, apathetic, dormant, closed down

A moment in time that defines who you are
The climax that since had long been gone
Chained to the fence of inactivity
Drowning in an ocean of ambiguity

A moment that lasts an eternity
Trying to make sense of the course
Without understanding the causality
That motion requires force

But there’s no one here to push you
And you slowly sink like a stone
Meanwhile the world still turns
And you don’t even fight to hang on

Inertiaby ~n-g-e

Literature / Poetry / Human Nature / Traditional Fixed Forms

I'm on the fence with this one. It feels like it's not finished - like it's not saying what it was supposed to have said. There are, again flow issues, but I can't spend any more time rewriting this, so I declare it "done". Whatever "done" is in this case.

~canticum Aug 9, 2007 Hobbyist Writer

Hmm, I like it! And once again I cannot express why!

~n-g-e Aug 10, 2007

That's ok. The liking part counts

~canticum Aug 13, 2007 Hobbyist Writer

yay!

~Pyrox666xPheebs Aug 5, 2007

Like the people above me

love the 'one step forward two steps back'

~n-g-e Aug 5, 2007

Hehe... at least it isn't the story of my life

!telianathegreat Aug 3, 2007

I absolutely love the first stanza.
Something about the S's, D's, and L's makes it sound absolutely fantastic aloud, and the "One step forward, two steps back, just in case" is really lovely.

~n-g-e Aug 4, 2007

Thanks

Much appreciated

`Pola-444 Aug 3, 2007

very very good.. my favorite line is "One step forward, two steps back, just in case"
i really enjoyed reading this

~n-g-e Aug 4, 2007

That's probably my most favourite line too...

Thanks

`Pola-444 Aug 4, 2007

welcome

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