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Of all the things I've lost Misplaced along the way I miss my innocence the most And the thoughts I've shrugged away Of all the things I've gained As I walked the path alone I cherish the memories ingrained And the kindness I've been shown And when the journey ends With the finish line in sight We make our amends And fade into the night

One touch is all it took One fatal tight embrace One penetrating look As a tear rolled down your face I'm broken, on the floor Shattered into a thousand pieces I've been here once before The tension swells, increases Not a common déjà vu A fear so paralyzing I wanted to bid you adieu The feelings are too tantalizing I know not what to do The answers that I sought None of them were true More questions they had brought Where do we go from here? Do I trust in fate? Or do I find a new frontier A new beginning for me to create? Gather up the pieces You won't be needing glue Only one thing keeps me together And it a

I can’t stop drinking Drinking and thinking Tryin’ to get outta the grind I couldn’t steal it I can’t ‘ah deal it Must be goin’ outta my mind The walls are closing While I be dozing Bitten off far more I can chew I couldn’t leave it I can’t relieve it Feeling a tad midnight blue The bottles crashing Synapses flashing The sky is falling on me I couldn’t stop it I can’t just drop it Why won’t it just let me be The moon is shining And I be howling My insides tearing apart I couldn’t take it I can’t just fake it So long, it’s time to depart

Maybe It’s not really worth it all There’s nothing tangible Awaiting behind that door The hand that leads Leads me astray And the sun won’t rise There won’t be another day Maybe There’s only so much that I see Blind to the chains that bind We’re never really free The beaten path To a dead end street Caught in a daydream Always incomplete Maybe I can’t have what I want Never really cared My indifference that I flaunt Going nowhere fast Following the signs This is who I am Read between the lines

Push to talk, pull to play Dream your life Dream away No respite, no reprise Second chances Alibis Push to talk, pull to play Take a chance Make your day No regrets, no goodbyes The tape’s worn Improvise Push to talk, pull to play Let it be Everyday No concealment, no disguise A new toy Sensationalise Push to talk, pull to play Empty threats I won’t obey No appeasement, no surprise All it lacked was Compromise

Walking down the extended plank So I can drown in a septic tank And I still get denied I see the indifference in your eyes It’s getting hard to describe The foul stench I get from your vibe You were supposed to be Someone special just for me But you spat in my face My inner death you embrace Then kick me in the arse And I play out this sorry farce Is there something wrong with me? Do you expect an apology? Why are you even here? Telling me I were so dear My life a perpetual fear That you are somewhere near Someone please give me a pill I’ll swallow it just for the thrill Even if it gets me killed My desires unfu

I listened to the words you said With an absent mind My thoughts – misread An empty gaze With no hope to find Caught in a haze The lights – they blind There is no peace There’s no respite The thought – a disease Corrupting my mind There is a story to unfold Clearing away My hands – they’re cold There is a place where I can run You won’t find me there The thought – undone Catch the glass Before it falls Watch it shatter The bell – it tolls

A familiar face A forgotten touch A caring embrace That used to mean so much An emotion long unfelt A hypnotizing glare A passing reminder That I used to care A forbidden fruit A thought led astray A futile pursuit Things have long slipped away An old feeling torn asunder Some things have to die And I can’t help but to wonder That I have forgotten why

Takes two to tango And two to play Two to fall in love But only one to stray Takes two to enjoy And two to have fun Two to bounce ideas But only one to shun Takes two to make a whole And two to make things right Two to start a conflict But only one to leave a fight Takes two for one to realize The important things And that living in solitude Is really no one’s dream But sometimes one and one Don’t make a two together And one stupid mistake Keeps them apart forever

I used to think so highly of you An innocence long gone, sorely missed Never thought I would bid you adieu One too many times having been dissed It’s funny how the more things change The more they stay the same How a forgotten exchange Brings old things back into the frame And as I drown in the deluge Of the memories long in the past I scramble to find refuge From old desires unsurpassed As I ponder giving into the temptation And the more I engulf myself There’s the unrelenting realization I can fool all but myself Snapping back to the reality Going against the flow Conscious of my own fallibility I still have the